Peyton wanted to cry.

"He hates me," she said, and then hid her face underneath a damp towel.



I am a fucking loser. Tomorrow, I'm going to chill, study a little bit for Ethics, try to write and then apply for as many part time jobs as I can.

I came home after 11, when I was meant to finish at 10. I'd dealt with the original finish time because, well, I just had to. And I'd surmised that it was okay, I could wash my hair after 10 and everything would still be okay. My hair's still wet. I'm awake and I can't write anything. I'm a little bit hungry because I'd decided not to be a fat fuck and eat a cheeseburger. I shouldn't drink anymore caffeine because that shit eats at the dry spot at the back of my throat.


Veronica, when the fuck are you going to work on your novel. Seriously.

Yesssss ! New profile motherfuckerr. Look.
I need to buy a renaming token damnit.

I'm feeling so restless. I should probably study. It turns out that it's Ethics first. I have Montana to thank for that piece of information. No doubt left to my own devices, I would have waited until Sunday to find out which unit was holding an exam the next day.

I got my sister to bring me tuna since I hadn't eaten after lunch. I don't even know why I asked. I don't have an appetite and the tuna's barely touched. Greeat. I'm going to put it away, get my computer to calm the fuck down, and try and focus on something. Brb.

Firstly. I just finished watching Scarface. I .am. the biggest motherfucking retard of the century, in those words. Why have I been so uneducated until a certain point in time tonight ? When I'm sure my dad wont beat me with a bottle. I'm kidding. I don't get abused, but you know what I mean. When it's not insulting, I'm going to have to seriously ask why they've deprived me of such quality pop culture for the better part of the past 6 or so years. I could have watched Scarface when I was 12. I was watching HBO when I was 12.

Secondly. I hate it when there's something written for one scene, of the same bloody variety (which I need to work on, geeeeeez), that can't really work for another scene.
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there's no ending to this yet because I suck and this probably does to. I want to sleep but one nose it blocked. I really need to start staying off the caffeine. Every time the wind makes something go bang, my heart starts going crazy. I'm going to have an Al Pacino marathon.
( I want what's coming to me. )

I love this man. He's one of my favorite actors of all time. I would probably marry him in a heartbeat, and I'm only mildly disturbed that he's 50 years older than me. Honestly, I think he's timeless.
Thanks Al, you've actually made my entire weekend. If he doesn't inspire me to write, I've got to be the ultimate form of retardation.